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RUNNING AWAY - HOOBASTANK

2007-07-27T02:13:00.000Z

I don't want you to give it all up

And leave your own life collecting dust

And I don't want you to feel sorry for me

You never gave us a chance to be

And I don't need you to be by my side

To tell me that everything's alright

I just wanted you to tell me the truth

You know I'd do that for you

So why are you running away?

Why are you running away?

Cause I did enough to show you that I

Was willing to give and sacrifice

And I was the one who was lifting you up

When you thought your life had had enough

And when I get close, you turn away

There's nothing that I can do or say

So now I need you to tell me the truth

You know I'd do that for you

So why are you running away?

Why are you running away?

Is it me, is it you

Nothing that I can do

To make you change your mind

Is it me, is it you

Nothing that I can do

Is it a waste of time?

Is it me, is it you

Nothing that I can do

To make you change your mind

So why are you running away?

Why are you running away?...

What is it I've got to say...

So why are you running away?...

To make you admit you're afraid...

Why are you running away?

UNINVITED - Alanis Morissette

2007-06-27T23:46:00.000Z

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot-blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you, you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepherd need shepherd
But you you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced love like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

ESCAPE...

2007-04-16T17:56:00.000Z

unpredictable lines,
circled the sky.
Anxiety bloomed,
deep within me.

liquid thoughts
flew out of my mouth,
craziness grew,
then swallowed me whole...

let me go...

DYING

2007-04-16T17:53:00.000Z

Frozen memories
rain down on me...
pushing me hard
onto the ground...

It's so hard sometimes,
When all u get is nothing,
and all u can think of,
is the better things u've seen!

Rushing through hopes and dreams,
waking up from nightmares,
i feel like i am dying,
over and over again...

How to Save a Life - The Fray

2007-03-26T22:30:00.000Z

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

EVERYBODY'S CHANGING...

2007-03-12T08:44:00.000Z

You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it
I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking
And I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
And soon you will disappear
Fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

THOUGHTS...think about it!!!

2007-02-25T02:41:00.000Z

"Our life is shaped by our mind; we become what we think. Joy follows a pure thought like a shadow that never leaves." - Buddha

About Life...

2007-02-24T18:59:00.000Z

Life...

2007-02-24T02:27:00.000Z

"Be not afraid of life. Believe that life IS worth living and your belief will help create the fact." - James Truslow Adams

I've tried to explain to myself, the meanin of "LIFE", and every single time, i'm like, "life is...", so i searched the meanin of life from the dictionary and here's what is says!

LIFE: The course of existence of an individual; the actions and events that occur in living.

So i got to thinking about it.and i realized just how true it is!

most of the time, wen u ask someone "how's life?", they respond without even thinking abt it.they dont really giv it much thought.and jus simply reply,"life sucks!!!". i ask myself, why do they say that??!!i mean, how ungrateful can a person be? how can life SUCK??? i know that its a saying, but...

why dont people take into account things that have happened to them?lets take the good things first.life is good only if wat happened to them was good.if things were goin the way they wanted, then they would be living life in the clouds.but, if anything shitty happened, then its all "life sucks".my point here is that, even if bad things or sad things or undesirable things happened, u cant blame urself or anyone or anything else and say that it sucks.ok, it sucks.big time.u can either keep sayin that it sucks or there is something u can do abt it.ask urself, would u rather say, "life sucks..." or do something abt it and live in the clouds...?

what i feel is, even if everything feels like its falling apart,and nothing is goin right...u've got to hang in there.there are certain things for sure.like it's all goin to pass by...and ur goin to look back and wonder abt how things happened.the desperation u felt.how hopeless u were...there is one good thing abt life sucking though.u learn from it.just dont feel bad abt how things are goin.keep an open mind.think positive.and SUICIDE is not the answer ;-)

the main problem is that u forget the most important things in times of distress.the people in ur life[ including the ones u hate], the good times, how u got through the bad times, the happy moments u've shared in ur life, the crazy things u've done...etc,etc.U CANT FORGET THAT!!!NEVER. i do understand that it would be hard to think of those moments wen ur feelin down in the dumps.but remember that u cant forget it.

i'm not good at expressing myself verbally, and i dont feel that i've proved my point here...but what the hell!i dont have to prove myself to anyone dho??? :-D

2007-02-21T12:17:00.000Z

"Your birth is a mistake you'll spend your whole life tryin to correct." Chuck Palahniuk.

Who ever he is, he sure is right. i couldnt agree more with that.

i came into this world, like any other person...and i've been living my life like any other person, just goin through the motions of life.

no matter how hard i tried, i couldnt make u see or understand what i really want to convey. cuz it takes more than words, from my side, for anyone to really understand.

what use is there in expressing yourself, wen everything is a big mess.i am sick and fed up cuz life is such a big bore.it's dragging on and on.i wish i cud rush things.so that i cud reach the end sooner.though i may be obssessed with killing myself, i know i am too much of a coward to actually do it.death means, that i wont be comin back again.no more facing the cruelty of everything.i am still alive, not cuz i am afraid of killing myself, but because i am waiting for my time.i am going to face everything and be strong even in the worst of times. i am a survivor......................!!!!!!

Birth eventually leads to death....

2007-02-21T00:03:00.000Z

One thing u shud know abt me is that, m not a writer.
i bet i probably cud be one of the best writers there ever was.
but the question is, do i want to be? or can i even be bothered?
the answer is simple.NO.i dont want to be!and i cant be bothered...

that wasnt how i wanted the first impression to be. those were jus simple words...but it conveys a lot and i've released part of the things i wanna let go of.

i don have a lot to say now...m jus a bit tired cuz this world keeps goin round and round...the only thing i can stop is me.i am the only thing that i have a control over.so let me stop now!